Have you ever gone to a new place or tried a new experience and thought to yourself, “I’m never doing that again!” Tell us about it.
we are a different person at different phases of life and after moving across a certain phase we wonder how could I be like that. it was so foolish, no fool will do that but unless we cross the phase we never know. it’s our hindsight which helps to analyse ourselves. this very knowing of our past foolishness is called self-awareness unless it’s is here it’s very difficult to raise a question about ourselves. we always live in a delusion that whatever we do is right but we never see that out of that right doing we are not getting the right results that mean there is something wrong with our doing and it needs some modification. in my childhood, I used to be a different person from what i am now.
In India especially in rural areas people want that their children should follow their inherited religion, they start teaching them the religious practices. so did my family when i was a child. more religious you become the more respect you will get in family. and more rebellious or question raisers you are the less respect will be there. my family always tried to involve me in all the religious rituals related to family or community custom.
at that time i had no idea what is relevant and what is not. so i followed whatever they said. I used to frequent temples with my family and sometimes alone too. they always thought that I’m gonna be a very religious person in their sense but not in mine, that made them very happy.but as i started getting more mature things were becoming more clear to me, now I could see the useful and uselessness of certain things.
after coming in contact with science, i started becoming more doubtful about many things related to religion. whenever I tried to clear my doubt from my elders who proclaimed them as highly religious, I always got dummy answers which made me more doubtful about their religion. for instance, one day I asked my uncle, “why cow is considered a sacred animal in Hinduism?” the answer I got from him was that because it is written in scripters. this is utter nonsense, who said that whatever is written in scripters is right. unless it is true for me, I can’t accept it at any cost.
but the most astonishing fact is that get offended when I raise questions. though I don’t think that there is anything wrong in going to temples and considering the cow a sacred animal. if cow is sacred then every other animal is also sacred. and if you like to go to temples and you can’t dare to go to other religious places like Mosques, Churchs and Curudwaras then your religion is impotent. this is true for everybody irrespective of the religion he follows.
if I know that there is no God outside, it always resides inside me then there is no need to go to temples. and there is no significance of following some nonsensical rituals. this is the very thing to which perhaps I will never return. though my family still don’t like my this way of life but I can’t obey something for the sake of obeying. with due respect, I always try to put my side before them but the problem is that they never try to hear or understand anything which is not right according to them. though they sometimes agree with me but never dare to renounce any practice. I think they are right unless it comes from your heart there is no point in doing something.